3/14/2012 1 Comment Another WaySo my journey began. I used to think that knowledge was power, now I just think it’s maddening. I Googled everything under the sun and started my library of fertility books, searching for another way. Any other way than having to take drugs. It just seemed so wrong.
I decided to give acupuncture a try. Have you ever done this? It was quite relaxing. It pretty much made me feel like I was in a trance and high on drugs. Kind of a nice break from what I was really feeling. Along with the needles they wanted me to drink herbal tea. Let me tell you, it did not taste anything like tea. Pure awfulness. I gagged every time I tried to drink it. They gave me tricks to get it down, like I was 5 years old and taking cough medicine. I couldn’t do it. I drove from North Glendale to Downtown Scottsdale twice a week for about 3 months. $90 every time I went, not including the tea. No pregnancy. Next up was my diet. No gluten, no sugar, no alcohol, no…anything. It was my fertility diet. I read that you must eat cooked vegetables, beans and eggs because these are the best nourishment for your body and they don’t sway your glycemic index. It made perfect sense to me, but it was oh so difficult. I tried, I really did. I wasn’t as strict as I should have been and now looking back, I could have done more. But to go through this much work to have a baby, come on….this is crazy. People get pregnant after a one night stand! Why do I have to have to get poked with needles and eat cooked vegetables? But I was sure I could “cure” myself. Drinking concoctions and sticking to the diet as much as I could. In my eyes, I should have been very fertile. Every month that passed I thought it could be the one. I didn’t play volleyball, didn’t drink and didn’t by new clothes in hopes that within a few months I wouldn’t fit in them anyway. Slowly this began to fade. You can’t live like this. You just can’t. My fertility diet turned into just eating healthy, I picked up volleyball again and went on a shopping spree. I was getting back to “normal”. I was so over it all that I almost thought I would just be okay without kids. It was easier to think this way than live the way I was. My Random Thought: Are you telling me this whole time I could have not used any birth control?
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Anna
3/27/2012 04:09:05 am
That's what I've thought too. You guys were probably so careful to NOT get pregnant and now, looking back, you could have a ten-year-old and you'd still be together. However, your life may not have been THAT great if the circumstances had changed like that. Yes, sometimes knowledge seems to just hinder the natural process of things, but when nature is not working in your favor, it's hard to trust it!
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AuthorHi! I'm Janet, a 35 year old wife, friend, daughter, sister, aunt, event planner and lover of life. My amazing husband of 9 years, Joey, and I struggled with infertility for 4 years. I welcome you to read my stories as I share my sometimes crazy thoughts on our journey through Archives
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